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Just to give backstory. My STBexH of 19 years had an EA with my best friend who was also neighbours 2.5 years ago (they did kiss but he keeps saying I didnt cheat). Her husband found the messages, and it was it was utter hell on earth; the shock made my hair fall out and I got mentally very poorly for some time. We tried MC for a year and to R but I spiralled as I never got the truth and he would blame me and the marriage. On Jan I asked him to leave which he did ad we both co parented well, but in the Oct I got a text message (the day of our wedding anniversary) saying they are now together. Almost one year on they are still together and its tough.

Slowly after lots of therapy and working on myself, I’m ok – I met new friends, I got fit, I went to college and I became a much better and happier person. Ive even fallen in love again with a most amazing kind man (but taking it slow)

What I’m struggling with now is the change in him. He is dismissive, selfish, has told so many untrue stories on me. He believes he did nothing wrong, says my new partner his OW 'are the same'. They both turn up to my house and sit on my drive when he collects my children (my eldest is really struggling with mental health at the moment) and Ive had mutual friend that we had now not speak to me but have accepted her and hang around her now, I did not have one message from any of them. This woman (and him) destroyed my life and my children’s world. He now says he wasn’t happy; there was many issues in our marriage and Im a narcissist which is why the marriage ended. Ivee had confirmation from my 2 therapists (I done CBT and EDMR) that Im not a Narc but HE s clearly a covert narc,

I keep my distance and I get on with my life. Ive asked him for nothing. We were happy, not perfect but all in all happy until his head was turned. He said he had depression (due to me). He also drank too much which he said wasn’t true it was me being controlling (they all say that don’t they), but recently he admitted Im not a narc and he did drink too much. No apology

His family, who Ive known for 19 years barley speak to me know, it’s like out with the old and in with the new (she is now around them getting invites to family events). It’s so hurtful and I’m finding that part really hard. I’m not local so they were my family for almost 20 years and at times a struggle as a single mum doing it all with no help.

I'm just basing reaching out to ask if others have found this? The rewriting history, the story telling, the family turning their back on you, friends who were part of your wedding now don’t speak to you…. when it was him that cheated!! I honestly don’t get it! How can he put a stranger (this is not her first affair) before his kid’s mental health and bring her BACK into their and my life after the damage and pain they caused. He watched me break! She called me sister! the 4 of us (her marriage ended too) would hang out all the time, and I was confiding in her daily as his mood swings were awful and all that time it was HER. He still says she did nothing wrong and was just being a good friend.

I know they deflect and its guilt and ego but still I’m finding it hard to just get my head around. I honestly dont get HOW people can do this and how family's support them

Any advice welcome.

[This message edited by Trix123 at 3:01 PM, Wednesday, July 15th]

It’s a tale as old as time Trix.

It’s common. My dad’s done this. Cheated on my mom a whole bunch and when he finally got caught ran off with the OW. He was a really devoted and loving father to me and my sisters. I know those two sentences don’t make sense next to each other, but it’s true. I have no doubt that he loved us with all his heart. But get this: a few years after his D, my big sister had a series of miscarriages. His OW (probably drunk) got on his email one night and sent her an email saying that the miscarriages were God’s punishment for being a bad person. When my sister confronted my dad (in hysterics) he genuinely had no idea what she was talking about. Went back and checked his emails and figured out what happened. Called her back and all he told her was that the email shouldn’t have been sent. No apology, nothing. Just that.

My theory is that it’s lashing out. They know. Your STBX knows he’s the bad guy, but they just can’t accept it. They have to do what-abouts they have to try to manipulate perception because the alternative - i.e., the truth - is too much for them. Dad knows he shredded his life for a psycho. But what’s he going to do now? He can’t admit it, and too much damage has been done for him to even try to fix it. He’ll never face the fact that his new relationship was born in deceit and the fantasy was never real. It’s easier to pretend it’s true love.

My advice is don’t get down in the mud with the pigs. Friends who’ve turned their backs to you have shown their true colors. Count their loss as a blessing in disguise.

Just live life trying to be a person you can admire. Life your life properly, with integrity and class and dignity. The things you’ve done while going through all this are amazing! College, new friends, a new love, and getting fit? While being a single mom? You’re like a super-hero. Continue to do yourself proud - people will notice. I promise your children will.

Thank you ever so much for this Letmebefrank. This is the helpful info that I need, sometimes I think it's just me and is he right!? I was lied to and gaslit for so long it's hard for your brain to work the truth out.

He was (I think) a good kind loyal man for 17 years, but now he is bitter, angry, resentful, sleazy and what feels like hate towards me.

He will continue to blame me and our marriage forever; he will never speak badly of her or blame them or apologise for not just the affair but the emotional abuse after. I don't know if she changed him (as I said this is not her first affair) or it was the guilt that made him 'depressed' or if he has ALWAYS been like this and I just didn't see it. I put him on such a pedestal and he frequently used to say you don't fix me anymore as you are too strong. I never could work out what he meant by that - but now I see him feeling threatened as Im loyal, kind, decent and yes bloody strong. No way could he have coped if I had done this to him.

Im sorry for your dad, these men are so weak. and I hope your sister is ok x

The blood is thicker than water thing does seem to apply often. Some of my XWS’ family "kept" me, but that was mostly because my XWS lied and deceived them during his A as well. His immediate family kept lightly in touch with me for a while, but within a couple of years, I no longer even got a Christmas card. 🤷‍♀️. His brother and SIL went NC/LC with both of us. Some close friends also stayed friends with my XWS- including one whose wife had an A with his best friend. That one surprised me.

Family just gets a different pass. We can’t control anyone else, so we just choose who we want to be around and go forward. It is weird and unfortunate, but the ripples of infidelity go wide.

As for your XWS rewriting history - totally common. The very character flaws that allowed them to cheat also compel them to not look to close at what they have done. They have to do all the mental gymnastics to make themselves out to be the victim, the good guy, it wasn’t their fault, they had no choice. They also often stay with the AP because they cannot face admitting they were wrong or that it was a waste. They chose their path and they commit to it fully, whether or not it’s a good or healthy path. And if they see you as good and kind, well, that doesn’t fit the narrative they are making up for their story. You have to be the bad guy.

So just remember - not your monkey, not your circus. Keep doing you, taking care of your kids, and moving forward. Let him be a crappy person.

Are you in IC? It might help you let go of the frustration and focus on your new beginnings.

(And congrats on getting out of infidelity and moving forward!!)

Im loyal, kind, decent and yes bloody strong

Exactly! He sees you and realizes that you’re all the things he is not. So he tries to undermine you.

My sister’s fine, thank you! This all happened 15 years ago. She did manage to get pregnant again and had their 3rd child, the girl they’d been hoping for. All’s well.